wood chopping thoughts...

I chopped wood yesterday and I decided to compare it to my spiritual life:

While swinging away with my hatchet I started to notice how utterly stubborn one particular piece of wood was being. I'm fairly certain that was half made of steel. But I thought to myself: no problem, if I keep chipping away it will eventually get to the point that it will break apart from the rest of the log. As I slowly and painfully inched my way through the wood I realized that the log was in no way planning on letting go of the branch it was so obstinately clinging to. It wasn't until I had chopped nearly completely through the entire log(it was hanging on by an inch) that it finally separated from the rest of the limb.

I think this situation can be compared to our lives as Christians. We are the log, God is the guy with the hatchet. The rest of the limb that we are clinging onto might be different for each person. For me I think it's fear and the desire to control things. God wants us and wants to make us useful for a purpose, but that can't happen until we can be willing to fully let go of the things we so desperately hold on to. It might not be too hard to give over some things to God, or to allow God to have part of us, but completely letting go and truly putting everything in Gods hands... that's a different story.

We can't be useful and functional for God until we let go. I can't put a log in my fireplace if it's still connected to a tree, and God can't use us to our full extent if we are still clinging to the world. Letting go isn't easy, it's a long process and painful at times. Luckily for us, God promises that when choose to cling to him rather than the world we can experience extreme freedom, peace and joy. The only difference between us and the log is that we don't end up getting burned in a fire, we get to live unattached to the things that once hindered us and instead be a part of God's perfect and pleasing will. hooray!

Unfinished post: part 1

Well ladies and gentlemen, my suspicions have been confirmed; I started a blog, got a few posts in, and then I never made a post again... until now, three months later. See, I've always had a fear of starting a blog, because I knew I would never keep up with it. I don't like being a starter of things and not a finisher... but I've been doing that a lot recently. I start a blanket... and then let it sit for 3 months before I work on it again. I move into another room, but have half of my stuff still in my old room for several weeks. I think a blog is especially intimidating because, when is it ever finished?

well... in keeping with my non-finishing habits, I'm off! (although I haven't yet finished this post) So I will be back another day, to continue.

I was playing with Chopper, the dog today until I accidentally threw his toy on the roof. He has been going crazy ever since attempting to find a way to get to his toy.

Also, I saw a woman today who I thought was wearing flashing blue earrings. Turns out it was just one of those little blue tooth phone things that goes over your ear. (I don't like those things)

There has been a new development in my life. I have recently become one of those girls who carries everything in her purse. I used to be a simple phone, keys, and wallet in a small, efficient bag. But tonight it took me at least a full minute to find my keys... not fun in the 20 degree weather.... I'm thinking about trying to revert back to my old and simpler ways. but you never know when I'm gonna need something random.... like a harmonica, which I just may happen to have in my purse right now.

I saw the Mighty Ducks for the first time today, and it was fantastic. I can't believe I had never seen it, and I now eagerly await watching Mighty Ducks II (Which is especially exciting because I have personally met and spoken to one of the cast members of Mighty Ducks II. Makes it all that more awesome!)

Well I suppose thats all I have to say for tonight. But first I'd like to leave you with a few photos:

This one I took at the Zoo... seemed interesting...



This I took at El Matador... I suppose they had a label mix up...



And I made a cake once....



Alright... I'm gonna go play some scrabble with some people at Zera!

fortune cookies and curiosity (Warning:Don't read it, it makes no sense)

Tonight at work(Pei Wei Asian Diner) A man who had just finished his meal vigorously tore off the plastic from an individually wrapped fortune cookie, broke the cookie in half, and pulled out the fortune. But to my surprise he didn't even glance at the little sheet of paper, he didn't even pause a moment. He simply discarded it atop the pile of rice that he had not eaten. Was he in such a hurry to eat his cookie that he didn't have time to stop and read his fortune? Could it be that he doesn't believe in such fortune nonsense and thus ignores the fact that there was something written on his paper? Was he practicing a strange religion that involves suppressing curiosity? Who knows? I for one don't believe that the little fortunes have any significant meaning whatsoever, in fact most of them aren't even fortunes at all but rather they are random proverbs and silly sayings. But the fact that I have already seen every fortune that our Pei Wei cookies have, and the fact that they are most often very un-amusing, does not change the fact that with every fortune I see that has been left behind by a customer, I have a burning curiosity deep within me to read every single one. I think it comes from the hope that maybe the next one I read will say something new, something different, something inspiring(that has yet to happen).

Anyways, I was just taken aback by the gentleman's lack of curiosity. I personally am inclined to agree with something I once read which said:

"Your curious nature will take you far in life" ... and yes, that is a fortune cookie saying

I'm not sure what I'm doing...

Well this is the first post of what will most likely be a very scattered and undirected blog of randomness. I don't know how often I will update, and I don't know what the contents will be, perhaps an occasional recipe, a life update, math equations, poetry, who knows? It could be that this will be my one and only post, we shall see. But for now I must begin my journey home. So I leave you with a question... if you subtract 3 from infinity do you have less than infinity?